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[Dec. 22nd, 2006|01:06 am] |
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| | All I Want For Christmas Is You - Mariah Carey | ] |
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[Dec. 11th, 2006|10:48 pm] |
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| | You and Me - Heather Waugh | ] |
I haven't written in this thing for awhile.....but I'm sick of studying so I figured I should vent in this thing, lol. I can't believe that Sophomore year is basically half way done. I still feel like I just moved into the freshman dorms here at Fordham, lol. Time goes by so fast........I've been thinking a lot about my major and possible career, and I always find myself confused with what I truly want. For the longest time I've wanted to be a doctor. I worked my ass off in high school to get the best grades and to get into the best schools with as many scholarships as I could get too, and I'm still working hard. But living in NYC and seeing all the opportunities that it offers has caused me to wonder if that truly is the right path for me. Taking my art history class core requirement also reminded me of how much I love art, especially fashion design and visual art. Maybe I'm just feeling this way because taking 20 credits a semester (including 2 science classes each with 4 hour labs) is starting to get to me. I love the medical field and want to make a difference, but sometimes I have to ask myself if it is worth all the stress and anxiety. Also, I feel like being pre-med is preventing me from truly enjoying college because I have to keep worrying about a science test to study for or a paper to write because I didn't have time to get it done because I was too busy studying for Organic Chem. I mean, I try to balance everything and make sure that I have fun, but I feel like I'm not having as much fun as some other people are. Am I the only one feeling this way?
Oh yea, and there's this boy :) I really like him, probably too much in fact, lol. I swear I get butterflies everytime I see him and he always puts a smile on my face. Lately we've been running into each other at the most random times, and sometimes I feel like it's destiny at work, lol. Although, I don't know how he feels about me. We're strictly on a friendship level right now, but I really want us to have something more. I'm too shy to say anything because I'm scared that there's a possibilty that he doesn't feel the same (and I hate rejection). I also hate putting my heart out there, but for some weird reason I have this gut feeling that maybe this is worth it. My friends keep telling me to "go for it," but it's easier said than done :( I wish that love was easier and that guys understood a girl's feelings better, it would make things so much easier.
Finals and the Holidays always cause me to have random emotions, but I really do want that special someone to finally appear in my life. I've been through so much and I'm continuing to go through a lot, and it would be nice to finally have someone that can tell me that everything is going to be all right and that everything I do is worth it. It would also be nice to finally have someone to talk about with my friends because they're always talking about their boyfriends and I feel so unloved when that happens :( |
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| L-O L-O L-O-V-E |
[Oct. 5th, 2006|12:16 am] |
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| | contemplative | ] |
| [ | music |
| | Chocolate - Snow Patrol | ] |
so today I was in one of those moods......you know, the one where you feel like you're the only single person in the world and nobody understands how lonely you feel inside? Not to seem selfish or anything, but I have to admit that I AM jealous of all you happy couples out there, lol. And don't get me wrong, I LOVE LOVE LOVE my friends, but sometimes you just need some extra loving that only a guy can provide, haha. And to add to that, I'm really the only single one out of my friends (how depressing! lol, j/k). I think I'm feeling this way because the holidays are just around the corner and I feel like I have nothing to look forward to in the love department during "the most wonderful time of the year"......no surprise Christmas gifts or walks down Fifth Avenue looking at Macy's windows with that "special someone", or a kiss at midnight on New Years Eve.
When will I be loved? :p
(this is a result of studying too much and doing too much homework, lol) |
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| How time goes by... |
[May. 4th, 2006|11:51 pm] |
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| |  exhausted | ] |
| [ | music |
| | If I Told You - The Wedding Singer on Broadway | ] |
Done with classes for freshman year! yay! Now I just have to get through these finals..........god help me. Summer '06 is going to be amazing though, I can't wait! :) |
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| We must face the truth |
[Aug. 24th, 2005|12:20 am] |
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| | Photograph - Nickelback | ] |
I will never forget tonight or all of the time that I have spent with my friends EVER. Each and every one of you have touched my heart/soul in so many ways, I can't even describe it with words. Looking at everyone's face and seeing everyone laugh and cry together one last time really touched me. It's time for all of us to move on, but I can't help but feel sad that we have to leave each other. All the memories will be with me forever. I love you guys too friggin much! :p Thanks for coming........I know this isn't the last time we will see each other, some people are just too good to let go of ;)
"It's hard to say it, time to say it, goodbye"
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[Aug. 22nd, 2005|04:31 pm] |
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| |  okay | ] |
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| | James Blunt - You're Beautiful | ] |
1. Reply with your name and I'll respond with something random about you.
2. I'll tell you what song/movie reminds me of you.
3. I'll pick a flavor of jello to wrestle with you in.
4. I'll say something that only makes sense to you and me.
5. I'll tell you my first memory of you.
6. I'll tell you what animal you remind me of.
7. I'll ask you something that I've always wondered about you.
8. If I do this for you, you must post this on your journal. You MUST |
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| (no subject) |
[Jun. 16th, 2005|10:05 pm] |
| [ | mood |
| |  melancholy | ] |
| [ | music |
| | Graduation - Vitamin C | ] |
If you read this, even if I don't speak to you often, post a memory of me. It can be anything you want, it can be good or bad, just so long as it happened. Then post this in your journal to see what people remember about you. |
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| My thoughts........... |
[May. 23rd, 2005|07:43 pm] |
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| | thoughtful | ] |
| [ | music |
| | How Did You Know? - Gary V | ] |
I've decided that I need to vent my thoughts, because there is so much going on in my head, especially with senior year coming to a close :/
First of all, why do teachers suddenly decide one month before the end of school that they should give you research papers and projects to do in such a short amount of time?! Haha, I'm going crazyyyyyy and I'm supposed to be having fun these last few days. This forces me to ask myself from time to time, "why the hell did I choose to take these classes during my senior year?".....oh well, I guess it's all for the best, and I must live up to my titles of "Most Likely to Succeed" and "Most Scholarly", haha.
Senior cut day is Friday..I might go into the city with Steph and Mal, it depends on how nice the weather will be, it's supposed to rain all week :( . Teachers are giving extra credit to people who actually show up on that day, I think it's time for me to stop being such a nerd and take off that day, hehe.
Prom: there is too much drama for this 4 hour dance, it's annoying. From the limo to the table seating arrangements, it's too much for one girl to handle, lol. As of now I'm going solo :( but maybe it's better that way? I won't have to deal with the burden of keeping my date happy and I'll be able to enjoy the night with my friends (doesn't mean I won't go with you if you ask me, haha ;) )
Graduation: there are days when I think that June 25 can't come any sooner, and there are times when I don't want it to come at all........I'm losing my safety net, how will I survive "out there"?, lol. But it's time for me to grow up and enjoy college (something that I hardly did during HS because I loaded myself with AP/honors classes) and become a better person. I NEED to get away and Fordham University will definitely be an awesome experience.
Lastly, I found out today that a couple of my friends got into a minor car accident Friday, they're all fine, but it occurred to me today, what if something bad did happen? I would probably have had an emotional breakdown because it would have been hard to believe that you could lose people you care about just like that ;( Friends are irreplaceable, especially the ones who have made an impact on you. Life can be scary sometimes, but I would like to believe that everything turns out for the better than the worse. |
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| I made a decision........ |
[Apr. 14th, 2005|07:20 pm] |
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| | cheerful | ] |
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| | No One - Aly & AJ | ] |
I've finally decided to go to Fordham University!!!!!!!!!!! It has a BEAUTIFUL campus and I just love the way how I feel like I fit in PERFECTLY :)
only 46 days left guys..................... and as much as we hate this place, we will miss it. whether it not be today but someday we'll look back. Remember the good times, times we laughed so hard it hurt and times we cried; but we will remember these days as the good ones. |
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| The end is near.... |
[Mar. 3rd, 2005|05:36 pm] |
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| |  indescribable | ] |
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| | Story of the Year - Sidewalks | ] |
Reading Cheryl's last entry really made me cry and realize, that the end is near.....the end of having security, the end of being ignorant, basically, the end of my life as a high school student. Life will be crazy from now on, trying to juggle college, work, relationships, and being GROWN UP (that scares me). But the hardest part of all will be saying goodbye to everyone..........I'm reading this book called "Rosie Dunne" and this quote really expresses how I feel:
"I don't want to be one of those easily fogotten people, so important at the time, so special, so influential, and so treasured, yet years later just a vague face and a distant memory. I want us to be friends forever."
*tear, lol. No matter how many ups and downs I've had with my friends, I just want to say that they have had SUCH a big impact on my life, and I love you all! :) |
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| Family Ties Episode of the O.C. |
[Jan. 7th, 2005|04:31 pm] |
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| | sad | ] |
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| | Time to Go - Jasion Fioto | ] |
Jimmy: I need to learn how to be a real dad ... so I'm leaving.
Marissa: Daddy, don't leave me....
OMG, I was friggin crying last night because of that episode. It's so sad how your parents could actually just pack up and leave you if they had to........geez, I am so not ready for college now, lol |
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| lonely and invisible |
[Dec. 10th, 2004|07:42 pm] |
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| |  gloomy | ] |
| [ | music |
| | Time to Go - Jason Fioto | ] |
there are some days when I feel so invisible and unloved and I feel like I'm just there to hear other people's problems when I myself feel like I'm dying inside.......I just feel so "weak" sometimes, maybe its all this college stuff thats wearing me out and seeing how so many of my friends are changing
P.S. - I got accepted into Binghamton, 1 of the 3 EA colleges I applied to. I still have 4 more Regular Decision ones too........ |
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| (no subject) |
[Nov. 3rd, 2004|06:07 pm] |
| [ | mood |
| | disappointed | ] |
| [ | music |
| | Passion - Lemonade | ] |
America.....you have disappointed me
Kerry should be president |
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| what brightened up my day |
[Sep. 9th, 2004|05:53 pm] |
| [ | mood |
| |  happy | ] |
| [ | music |
| | Last Thing - Diana Anaid | ] |
From Cheryl's LJ:
"Will be crowned Most Likely to Succeed by their class:: liz"
I was SO happy when I saw this in Cheryl's LJ. I didn't think that anyone thought that this could be a possibility. It brightened up my gloomy day and even made me forget that I was sick ;)
some people are just so awesome |
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| My last first day of school at LHS |
[Sep. 3rd, 2004|10:21 pm] |
| [ | mood |
| | tired | ] |
| [ | music |
| | My Boo - Usher & Alicia Keys | ] |
Today was okay I guess. I didn't have to take the bus! yay for that, I actually got a parking spot, so I can legally park at school, lol. Mr. Tapia, Mr. Robinson, and Mr. Sparks all approached me today and talked to me, haha. Of course it included the typical, "So you're a senior now, eh? Are you getting a case of senioritis?" lol. The good thing though is that Robinson wrote me a letter of recommendation, yay, lol.
Moving on, my classes seem to be okay. AP Calc first thing in the morning isn't very pleasant though, I'm so happy that Izzo is teaching it though.
1 - Calc: big class, too many chalkboards, double period, I'm scared...........haha
2 - Study Hall/Calc Double - it's in the cafeteria, so it's not really a "study hall", but its okay, im not alone, so thats good
3 - Lunch - it's only 5 of us there ;( Er, Steph, Becca, Kannry, and me.....where did all of the lunch bunch go?
4 - AP Lit - I know I'm going to be scared of this class all year, I don't know if I can write the type of essays she wants. Mal, save me, haha, lol
5 - AP French - i dunno why I'm taking this class still, I think its only bc I have to live up to everyone's expectations, I'm supposed to be really good at French. The class is so much bigger now though, and Er isn't with me anymore ;( I'll need to actually care about that class now if I want to keep my grades at top notch
6 - Study Hall - Mike Katz is in there too and he's offering to help me raise my SAT score, so hopefully he can be my miracle and help me out ;)
7 - Public Policy: Issues in Govt. - Mr. Rini scares me, lol. He tries to be funny, but it scares me bc u never know what he's gonna do/say.
8/9 - AP Bio - I LOVE this class. Wenk rocks, even though he already slapped me on my forehead the first day. I love bio though and it seems like it'll be an easy AP class, so it'll probably be one of my fav classes this year.
Well, thats it for today, I'm exhausted, I haven't woken up at 5:30 in a LONG time, since June actually, lol. Later gator
"There's always that one person that will always have your heart, you never see it coming cuz you're blinded from the start, and you're that one for me, it's clear for everyone to see....." - Usher in "My Boo" (I love this song) |
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| Summer Vacation comes to a close |
[Sep. 2nd, 2004|08:23 pm] |
| [ | mood |
| |  nervous | ] |
| [ | music |
| | How's It Gonna Be - Third Eye Blind (goin back to the '90's) | ] |
I can't believe we already start school tomorrow.......where did all the time go? seriously. Last night I wasn't nervous or anything, in fact, I wasn't even thinking about school. But it just hit me now, this is my SENIOR YEAR. I should be happy, but the next couple of months seem like they're going to be so hectic with applying to colleges and taking the SAT's again. Anywayz, we'll see what tomorrow brings, the only highlights are that I'm driving to school and I can see all of my friends again
Today I went to get a glucose tolerance blood test done (its NOT fun, believe me). They drew out 5 tubes of blood from me and I had to stay there for 2 hours. I was so light-headed afterwards (kinda how u feel when ur drunk, lol) My arm is still numb though bc its all bruised up since they took so much blood at one time...........well I have to go and do the daily routine for school again, see y'all in the AM |
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| (no subject) |
[Aug. 26th, 2004|09:45 am] |
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| |  bouncy | ] |
| [ | music |
| | Autobiography - Ashlee Simpson (her CD rocks! lol) | ] |
| E | Emotional | | L | Legendary | | I | Important | | Z | Zany | | A | Altruistic | | B | Bright | | E | Emotional | | T | Tender | | H | Handsome |
Name Acronym Generator
From Go-Quiz.com
legendary? me? yea right, haha, lol, j/k |
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| everything is changing |
[Aug. 24th, 2004|05:49 pm] |
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| | contemplative | ] |
| [ | music |
| | Breakaway - Kelly Clarkson | ] |
I was looking at my old yearbooks and it suddenly hit me that after this year, nothing will be the same anymore. I had college applications scattered all over my bedroom floor and when I looked at them I just started to cry.
I thought about all the friends I've made, all the ones that I lost, and all the ones I should have made. Moving 2 times didn't help at all, I lost some of the best friends that I have ever had. Don't get me wrong, I still keep in touch with some of them (like Barbara, Teresa, Ashley, and Alyssa, etc. I luv u guys!) but it's not completely the same, you know? I always hear how much fun they're having and I can't keep myself from wondering, "what if i DIDN'T move?". Those are the times when I breakdown, but then I think about all the great people that I have met here out in Suffolk and I feel so much better. I remind myself that I am blessed to have met such amazing people and I try to keep in touch with everyone as much as I can. I also thank god that I have such a big family and they're such a big support group
phew, that was good to get off my chest, lol. Oh yea, my car hasn't been fixed yet b/c the replacement door that the auto body shop ordered was damaged when they received it. I hope it can get fixed before school starts......which is highly doubtful. Oh well, at least I'll be able to drive to school and not have to take the stupid bus anymore ;) thats a major plus for this senior year (can't wait!) |
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| as I walk through the halls of Longwood High School........ |
[Aug. 2nd, 2004|11:18 pm] |
I can't believe I went back to the high school today, eek, lol. I had to drive my friend Allison there b/c she needed to pick up an application for her working papers and I can't believe how different the school is during the summer. It's SOOO dirty, its disgusting. There was something really sticky on the floor and eww, you get the picture, lol. But as I was walking through those halls for the first time since June, it hit me that this is going to be my last year in Longwood and it made me sad (don't ask me why, haha, lol, j/k) It made me feel like I have this big hole in my life that I have to fill up with good times this upcoming senior year and the rest of this summer. So buddies, pals, call me so we can make the most of the rest of the summer!
After dropping Allison back at her house I had to go to my grandma's and help unpack some more. Then I had to drop off my car at the auto body shop to get it fixed. (yea if u haven't already heard, in June my neighbors across the street backed up into my car while it was PARKED! My first accident and I wasn't even driving, lol. But yea so there's this BIG dent in the driver's door and my neighbor's insurance company finally agreed to pay the $1,200.00 to get my car fixed ;P ) So I am car-less for the next two days, maybe this will force me to start the summer assignment for English......yea right, lol. |
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| Starting new |
[Aug. 1st, 2004|11:21 pm] |
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| |  blank | ] |
| [ | music |
| | Kiley Dean - Better Than The Day | ] |
New journal, new me..............hopefully, haha. This weekend was one of those weekends where I wished I was somewhere else. The rain today sucked and it was too damn humid! Ahh, I miss those breezy July days, August is scorching.
I got this from Ericka's livejournal.........Put a star next to all those things you remember as a kid. Oh geez... Here comes the trip down memory lane:
Fresh Prince of Bel-Air *
Fraggle Rock*
G.I. Joe *
Are You Afraid of the Dark *
Secret World of Alex Mack *
Nightmare Before Christmas *
Welcome Freshman
Space Cases *
Roundhouse
The Muppet Show *
Muppet Babies *
Eureka's Castle*
Salute Your Shorts *
Legends of the Hidden Temple*
You Can't Do That On Television *
G.U.T.S *
What Would You Do? *
Double Dare *
Rocko's Modern Life *
All That *
Ren and Stimpy *
Clarissa Explains It All *
Pete and Pete *
Stick Stickley *
Goodburger *
Angry Beavers *
Spongebob *
Hey Arnold! *
AAH! Real Monsters *
Tiny Toons *
Animaniacs! *
Pinky and the Brain *
The Babysitter's Club *
Underdog *
Kablam! *
Gullah Gullah Island *
Richard Scarry *
Dumbo's Circus
Ocean Girl
Mystery Files of Shelby Woo *
Snick Snacks
Dunkaroos *
Koala Yummies *
Where In The World Is Carmen Sandiego *
Nick Magazine *
Goonies *
Ernest movies *
Radio Flyer
Disney Watchers
Adventures in Wonderland *
Homeward Bound *
The Adventures of Yellow Dog
Milo and Otis *
Neverending Story *
Who Framed Roger Rabbit *
The Lion King *
Labyrinth *
101 Dalmations *
The Secret Garden *
Pete's Dragon *
Hocus Pocus *
Secret of Roan Inish
Land Before Time *
Dinosaurs *
Fern Gully *
Secret of NIMPH *
Gummi Bears *
Care Bears *
A Little Princess *
My Little Pony *
Black Beauty *
Rainbow Brite *
Lady Lovely Locks
Candyland *
Sorry! *
Trouble *
Don't Wake Daddy! *
Mousetrap *
Jenga *
Don't Break the Ice *
Hungry Hungry Hippos *
Cooties *
Tinker Toys *
Sky Dancers *
Polly Pocket *
Slap Bracelets *
hypercolor t-shirts *
Lite Brite *
neon colored/Dayglo clothing *
scrunchies *
Side ponytails *
stirrup pants *
jelly shoes *
saddle shoes
Barbies *
Beanie Babies *
Tamagotchies *
yo-yos *
Pogs *
Goosebumps *
Magic Attic Club
American Girl *
Island of the Blue Dolphin
Saved By The Bell *
Full House *
Step By Step *
TGIF on ABC *
Sabrina, the Teenage Witch *
Boy Meets World *
Clueless *
Simpsons *
Flipper *
Eerie, Indiana *
Third Rock From The Sun *
Tracey Ullman Show *
Ghostwriter *
Growing Pains *
Family Ties *
Titanic *
Felix The Cat *
Jonathan Taylor Thomas *
Home Improvement *
Tom and Huck *
My Brother and Me *
Kenan and Kel *
Hanson *
Inspector Gadget *
Teenage Mutant Ninja Turtles *
Power Rangers *
Hot Wheels *
Creepy Crawlers *
Easy Bake Oven *
Weinerville
Wild and Crazy Kids *
playdough McDonald's sets *
Animorphs *
Rainbow Fish *
If You Give A Mouse A Cookie *
Bailey School Kids *
Wayside School *
Mrs. Piggle Wiggle *
Boxcar Kids *
Ramona Quimby
Amber Brown *
Roald Dahl *
Allegra's Window * |
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